Thoughts about waiting. I have heard one of the sharpest critiques a woman can give to a man who is courting her is that he is impatient. But impatience can affect us in many other facets of life than just romance.
Sometimes patience is almost physiological for me. My nervous system and metabolism speed up when I am anxious. I think this phenomenon often leads to addictive behavior. There is a saying that addicts are more sensitive, and I think it is the nerves mainly.
It is, of course, a balance. The secret to happiness, some say, is having something to look forward to. But you can anticipate too much to the point of anxiety and lose the momentary satisfactions of life. Balancing present and future. And then there’s the past, at times a gentle refuge and at times a haunting nuisance.