4/2/2021 blog

Thoughts today on disappointment.

Everyone has some disappointment in life, and part of maturity is accepting and dealing with it without irritating other people as a result. I usually use art and anti-anxiety medication right now to deal with it. When I was under 14, I sometimes used violence, which was bad. I think music helps a lot. Some say music is mainly about seduction. Well, maybe so. I don’t think it really matters, as long as it helps you. Plato also did not like most poetry. He thought it stirred up emotions that are not good for people, making them ecstatic.

It brings to mind a Nine Inch Nails song. I know some people find Trent Reznor to be too angry, but I find him to be very honest as well. One of the purposes of art is to turn pain into a kind of beauty, and I think he did it, even if his work has a lot of rage in it. Here are the song’s lyrics.

Disappointed

If I were you I wouldn’t trust
A single word I say
Think by now you should know
That nothing’s gonna change

Can I ask you something; what did you expect
So disappointed with what you get
Do you ever want to just get outta here
So disappointed; just disappear

Look at you, Superman
With all the world to change
Think by now you’d figure out
That nothing’s gonna change
And I am part of the reason

Can I ask you something; what did you expect
So disappointed with what you get
Do you ever want to just get outta here
So disappointed; just disappear