2/12/2023 blog

An extract from a conversation ( ( didn’t have time for quotation marks, but you can get the idea)

TODAY

 

So how is you inspiration going for this morning, Edmund? May I know?)

08:17

 

Well, I wrote a brief poem recently called “Skipping CDs” about how the breakup of a male childhood friendship. It can be like l hearing skipping music CDs because it can stick annoyinglly in your mind.

08:21

 

What means skipping CD’s in this regard?)

08:22

 

That you always remember it, even though the sound can be unpleasant.

08:24

Maybe you mean skipping tracks? Skipping CD’s is not rentable because you need to put one or another disc everytime

08:24

 

What about vinyl? It’s common retrospective in this regard. CD is not rentable anymore

08:25

 

Need to start the day again. Thank you.

08:26

Haven’t you started it before, Edmund?

08:29

 

By the way, how is your day starting moslty? From time that you’re waking up till the time when you sit near your table and starting to write?)

08:38

I t takes about a minute to stabilize after waking, sadly.

08:47

 

Siome garble

08:48

Why sadly? It’s common function for every people because morning is not always cheerful and you need time to be a bit active)

08:49

I could say something crude.

08:5

 

You’re always saying that it’s going to be “SOMETHING CRUDE” but I’m not surprised) What are you going to say, astronaut?)

08:50

 

[Expletives deleted]

 

Would you like to say this to  the thai woman first? 😁😁😁

08:52

 

Just a joke. I would not hurt or disrespect you.

08:53

 

I think you want this just saying sorry or afraid that I’m afraid or mad at this)

08:54

 

I would would do it for you too, if you wanted.

08:56

 

Only if you will decide with whom you want to be mostly)

08:57

 

My attitude toward dating.sites is we are only chatting however romantic/erotic it may be until we meet possibly. in person.

09:02

Well I guess erotic is something with what you deal in terms of woman that you really love mostly. Do you agree?

09:02

 

Or you want to see me in bikini in this regard? 😅

09:02

 

In this regard. yes.

09:05

Do you really like it?) I wonder if this one not little one on me)

09:07

I have a new computer thatt does not seem to deal with visuals of me well.

09:09

 

Do you mean photos of yours in this regard?

09:09

Yes, the last computetr was pretty simple about visuals.

09:10

 

I may get a new one soon.

09:11

What about phone or you use not smartphone in this regard?

09:18

 

Also it depends of what kind of screen or laptonp you have, you also may make some photo there

09:28

 

I do not do porn online . But you can see me otherwise ifks.k you want and my computer works.

11:06

 

I think I’m not used to make it) What about showing yourself in this regard?) I mean some photo of what you’re doing or stuff

11:09

 

I can share sf my poems if you want.

11:22

 

I do.

 

Your boobies are better than rubies.

11:25

It’s rhyme, not poem) May I hear that fully?)

11:26

 

Are you here or running away from my question, Edmund? 😄😄😄

11:44

 

A single man gets into trouble with the law for kissing emojis a woman has sent him on his computer.

11:45

 

Where did you read this non-sense?

11:45

 

In college. It was by Leo Tolstoy.

11:47

 

Leo Tolstoy lived in the time where there were no electronics and emojis. Where did you find this silly information? 😄😄😄

11:47

 

My own head. Need to go again. Thank you.

11:49

Why are you always answering so abstract instead of saying everything more clearly and not run from questions or affirmations?

11:50

 

I guess The Resident band would like to meet you as their memeber) They usually like such things that you have used to say)

11:51

It was about a sometimes quarrelling couple called “War and Kiss.” It is a was very long.

2/10/20223 blog

Invasion

A Chinese spy balloon has invaded west. Canada. We will have none of it.
So move to Nunavut, a small province.

2/10/2023 blog

A joke/poem and a memory

“Grow” by yours truly

“Grow a pair!”

“But I do not like pear.

They can be not something I want to eat.”

“I was speaking of something else, and you need some.

I have a grown  a pear. It tastes nice enough.”

“Okay, let’s not be thought tough..”

“This game can be rough.

A memory

I said to an old high school buddy on the phone recently when he reconnected because I was writing crazy things on social media that humor is how I vent anger issues, but sometimes it only comes across as anger. He  said his Father was like that.

I got past that phase and mainly keep to myself these days. It is okay.

2/9/2023 blog

On flowers

 

Had initially planned to include an awkward exchange with a neighbor today but thought it better to turn to other things. I get along well enough with my immediate neighbors.

An observation.

I sent some flowers to an online flirtation/ friend. She seemed to like it. But it made me think whether giving flowers to someone you do not know  well is romantic or creepy. In high school we had a tradition of giving wrist-.worn flowers to dance dates even if you don’t know them much.

Stephen King hadn a short horror story about a man who continually buys flowers for women the then kills. I did not kill my dance dates in high school.

“”

“The flowers cover everything.” –R.E.M.

2/8/2023 blog

On Social Security and names in fiction and a brief poem

Regarding claims some politicians want to  defund Social Security. It has already been defunded . I have been applying forr SSA disability for years  despite having severe nerve, damage verified by medical doctors, applying for hundreds of jobs, and having paid into SSA for over two decades. They have not given me a cent.,

On another matter, I am planning to use the real first names of a few people met recently in a new novel. I consider them friends and made sure they would agree to it. In a work of fiction, it helps me there are real people inspiring the fake ones.

“Skline”by yours tyuly

More pastels:

Over foothills.

Light blue and pink

In dimming light

As comes night..

And   I think of you that night in in pastel clothing,

But we would not be betrothing.

You were the light purple in my life.

As well she may have, as well she might.

Behind a burning sunset.

And what do you regret?

 

2/7/2023 blog

On pessimism

“I hate the world today,,,..” It was the first line of an angry female pop song in the 1990s.

My Dad was a curmudgeon but basically optimistic.

It is hard to tell,, like waves between sadness and joy.

2/6/2023 blog

On binaries

There was a famous post-punk song by The Clash that went like this:

“Whoa
(Ah, parlar)
Darling, you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mine
I’ll be here ’til the end of time
So you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
It’s always tease, tease, tease
You’re happy when I’m on my knees
One day is fine and next is black
So if you want me off your back
Well, come on and let me know
Should I stay or should I go?”
It is hard to know whether to stay or go.
Some say going is better.
Butt they are not always right.
A couple needs to decide.

2/6/2023 blog

A brief poem

“Blue” by yours truly

Soft white clouds over foothills

Surrounded by sunny blue sky.

The sky. Why oh why?

Why past, and why future?

Why oh why?

2/5/2023 blog

“Question” by yours  truly

 

“What is the question again?”

10:21

“And if you don’t know what to say just say that you’re not sure. Also it’s not polite to make question to person who has made question for you,.

10:21

 

READ ABOVE I HAVE MADE IT IN THE BEGINNING OF THE DAY.””

10:21

 

“I don’t have it.Sorry..

 

Yes, it is hard, and when I look at you, the garden snqke gets hard.”

 

“You’re a bad liar, I asked you this question at the daytime but never mind already, I thought that you may be honest.”

11:29

“Stop doing this to the snake!”

11:30

“What the hell are you talking about?”

11:30

“It was a joke.”

11:30

“Are you joker or real man? Always that you say is a joke but how often have you used to be serious?”

11:31

Also joke it’s when you make funny not only for yourself but for somebody and I didn’t even smile at your jokes for today. What’s next? Sone say another thing and say that it’s also joke?”

11:34

11:35y

 

“Real men are not always serious. I am sorry if I offended you, but this world can be cruel, and some need humor at times.”

11:37

 

“The fact that you are inattentive and often slow down is not the fact that you are trying to joke or something. For you, this is a defensive reaction rather than something sincere.”

11:38

 

“I do not agree with people who say humor is only a defense mechanism. It can be other things.”

11:41

 

“For example? Your ignorance of questions and messages that I made before? “

11:44

“Humor can be satire which is actually offensive.”

11:45

 

“And now you haven’t answered my question again… don’t make a view that you didn’t see my message, it’s above of yours.”

11:47

 

“I’ll look for it. And it does not have to be about sex.”

11:47

“Answer my question and don’t get me pissed off, thing that you say right now is off  topic and having no sense. Don’t question the question!”

 

“I am tired and should eat. Thank you G—-…”

11:50he

“Nice conversation, thank you (just kidding).”

11:51

So what do you think about that joke? Feel yourself funny? I don’t think so. Same you made recently to me.”

 

 

 

2/4/2023 blog

A comment and three brief poems

Comment

It is hard to get back to work on a fairly big project when you have lost momentum. It is especially difficult when you have chores and other distractions.

Three poems/

“Enough” by yours truly

They did not deliver everything./

But enough.

A,ll this stuff!

2) “Romantic” by yours truly

“What is the most romantic thing you’ have done?”

“Not hurting h’er when she rejected me.

And in a way she helped me..”

“Well, people are complex.”

3) “High Desert” by yours t1ruly

“Yep, it can get chilly here.

They call it high desert.”

“Over 7,000 feet plus. surrounding foothills.

On the East Coast you only

Need 1,000 feet for a ski resort.”

“Ha ha.”